today's choir rehearsal is like oh my gosh. i was really sobbing through the whole talk dunno why but i cried and this is the FIRST time i cried in front of other people yes. really when i felt all the stress all the com members faced, i kind of broke down. i felt so useless that i can't even help at all i wanted to say alot of things but at that moment, i don't seem to be able to speak the words were all like clotted up in my throat i really appreciate what all the comm have been doing they are really good to me they helped me to come this far in choir i cannot let them down but it just seems that we are not making use of their help i felt the intense worridness the anger; the frustration if we are still this standard i really feel that i have let all the comm down and myself si jia is a great student conductor i don't want her to walk out on us i really love choir it is my soul i cannot believe that one day i am going to be leaving it i would just... die you know what i was really afraid of the octets tomorrow but now i just feel neutral about it i suddenly felt that i had this compulsion to sing well and that i can do it i won't be sad if ms tham picks me out or something as long as i do my really best i wouldn't feel so sad. cannot believe that days ago i was having nightmares about it it was really that scary. i would wake up crying really. that scary. but yeah. i really love choir i would do anything for it. believe me. its true.
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the lover;
je suis Anthea.
fifteen, 24th july 1992
choir, CHIJ secondary toap Payoh
Ex CHIJ primary
trinity Christian Centre
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