every day is a new day

Wednesday, December 13, 2006 ;

8:56 PM

i am so screwed for choir.
well, my singing is alright, i guess.
but as a pianist.
yeah.

THE CHOIR TEACHER ( her name is too digusting to be spelt out), suddenly had this impromptu thing
she asked all the three pianist to play the syf piece
"everybody sang"
ON THE SPOT

I FREAKED OUT
SERIOUSLY
FREAKED OUT

it was horrible
i kept on slipping on the notes
and got so many wrong
and then the biggest mistake
i said
"something like that"
after i gave up trying to correct my notes on the third page
i kinda lost all my self-confidence
after playing so many wrong notes
yeah
i really SUCK
according to estella
my playing wasn't that bad
but maybe she was only saying that to comfort me.
i really felt that i played really SHIT today.
THE CHOIR TEACHER'S face was like totally black, after i finished playing.
it was really that bad.
then she went on to tell the whole choir that

THE PIANISTS PLAYS A VERY IMPORTANT PART IN SECURING A GOLD WITH HONOURS AT THE SYF

OH. WTH
SHE IS NOT MAKING IT ANY BETTER

says that the pianists shouldn't be pressured
yeah right. aren't you already stressing us out?

AND MY SOCKS ARE REALLY IN THE WASH
I DON'T CARE IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME
BUT THEY REALLY ARE.

AND HOW DARE YOU TELL ME THAT I AM ASHAMED TO BE IN THIS THIS SCHOOL!
YOU SHOULD BE THE ONE ASHAMED, ALWAYS BEING SO SARCASTIC TO PEOPLE.
YOU DO NOT REALISE THAT THE WORDS YOU SAY ACTUALLY HURT PEOPLE'S FEELINGS, DO YOU?
NO, OF COURSE NOT.

that was the ultimate thing that i cannot take
fine, you can scold me or nag at me or say that my piano playing is shitty
you can make me cry or don't let me be in the committe anymore.

BUT PLEASE

DO NOT
EVER
EVER
INSULT ME
BY SAYING THAT I AM ASHAMED TO BE AN IJ GIRL

NEVER EVER DO THAT AGAIN
OR I WOULD REALLY
REALLY BLOW MY TOP OFF

and the fact that you referred to the horrible newspaper article that ij girls wear their uniforms improperly, was certianly so passe.

OH MAN
GET A LIFE!

erk.
she is so making me puke

at least the sectionals and the octets made it tolerable
without the horrible 'event'
i think that the choir session today was actually quite fun.
yeah.

every day is a new day ♥