every day is a new day

Friday, March 30, 2007 ;

10:57 AM

okay in computor lab 4 right now.
waiting for the cme teacher to like come into class.

haha.

i just love lab periods!!!!
yay!

I GOT INTO SYF AUDITIONS
YAY!
WE WILL GET GOLD WITH HONOURS YES? YES!
YAY!

haha.

elaine is beside me doing funny things with her blog
something about Mr Bean?
haha.
she ah...
lol.

had bio period at the lab just now too.
haha.
people from MOE came to see the lesson
Ms Ng was so cute!
we had to prctice to greet the people too haha.
"good morning mams and sirs"
haha.
hope i didn't make a fool of myself while trying to pass the "food ball" using our bodies without the use of our hands.
it was something to do with the swallowing of food through the oesophagus.
haha.
the guy from MOE said something funny
"now i know why we hear so much noise when we swallow our food"
haha.

its a good day and i'm happy.
but there is PFT later.
but heck.
don't bother.
haha.

every day is a new day ♥

Saturday, March 24, 2007 ;

12:27 AM

yeah.
elearning day.
stared at the computer screen half the day.
going to spoil my eyes...
haha.

then had piano
then chinese tution.
lalalala.

GO ODYSSEY OF THE MIND!
OUR GROUP TOTALLY ROCKS
WE CAN DO IT!
YAY!

bought cloth at Arab street yesterday
met a nice shopkeeper
haha.
"uncle can we have this green cloth for free?"
"uh..."
"please?"
*gives me the cloth, i placed it into my bag*
"aha.. i didn't see that"

so cute right?
haha.

every day is a new day ♥

Thursday, March 22, 2007 ;

9:16 PM

FULL HOUSE ROCKS!!

YES.

ITS SO SWEET!

YEAH!

GO RAIN!

GO PRETTY GIRL!

HAHA.

i think rain has a good body and dances really well.

so i shall support him!

haha.

SO SWEET RIGHT?

YES.

every day is a new day ♥

Friday, March 16, 2007 ;

9:11 PM

It was sure one sleepy camp
Haha.
SECONDARY 3 GENERAL LEADERSHIP CAMP
Had to arrive at school by 8 am
Uncle David was the instructor with his wife, aunty Rachel and to other instructors, Gilbert and Ben.
Uncle David was so funny when he told us his history.
"I was from the best boy’s school in Singapore… SJI"
And I could practically hear everybody in the room going "errrrrrrr"
Haha.
I guess this is like a different kind of camp, its more of like talks and sessions instead of games and getting wet and dirty, like the secondary three adventure camp.
Learnt about my personal thinking style
I AM AN ABSTRACT RANDOM (AR) PERSON
Haha.
I got sixty points for that, which is like the maximum anyone could get if they were an abstract random person.
Wow.
Hmmmmmmm
I guess some part of its analysis were kind of true.
Its quite fun to know everyone’s thinking style J
So that we know what kind of person they are and how to deal with/lead them.
All the student leaders had to go into their own little cca/council/house groups to talk and present their roles and expectations in their various ccas/houses etc.
Choir had to sing J
And we sang melamelu
Haha.
We could see the confusion on everyone’s faces.
It was so sad that there weren’t any high-energy games according to the tentative programme outline.
I wanted to get dirty or something.
Haha.
The second day’s visualization was really good.
I think that they should have it more often.
Its good to have a bit of letting go once in a while.
You feel much better.
PERT!
Haha.
And all those post-it we wasted.
VANNY I MISSED YOU!

every day is a new day ♥

Sunday, March 11, 2007 ;

12:37 PM

THIS CONFIRMS THAT I AM A COMPLETE FAILURE
I CAN’T EVEN QUALIFY FOR A PROPER JC WITH MY CA1’S L1R5 SCORE.

I feel like a loser.
Being in a class of geniuses aren’t exactly helping me to relieve my self-bashing antics.
And all those people who said that they go ‘really low’ for their L1R5
Just zip it alright?
There are a few of those people out there who needs some space to sniffle and sob, without those declaring that they did so shit, when they actually got BELOW FIFTEEN POINTS.
I learnt how to be sensitive to other people’s feelings after a very bad incident, and I really don’t want any of you to experience any bad experiences and then change like me. By the time you realized that you actually was insensitive to other people’s feelings, the damage was done; and the person would feel even more depressed.

And there is certainly no need to feel sorry for yourselves,
Just think that you are scoring better than such a loser like me is good enough.
I never knew that one’s grades could actually drop from as A1 in secondary two to like an E8 in secondary three. That drastic, to the point of shocking.
ARGHHHHHHHHH
I feel like tearing my hairs out.
I FEEL DAMN STUPID.
ARGHHHHHHHHH

All this talking makes me look like I am so results-oriented.
But just to tell you this.
MY LIFE WAS ALWAYS LIKE THIS.
I mean social life and moral values are quite important too,
But results play a huge part in your lives too.

I mean without good results, where would we stand in society in this new modern age? Where will we find a well-paid job? Without a job, will you have food to put on the table? You can’t always depend on your parents forever, they would have to retire one day or it would burn them out. Will you have money to support your family? Or even get married? Or to have kids? Many things rely solely on results. For example, if you managed to get a job a company, and at the end of the year you don’t make money for the company or give the boss any results, will you still be hired?

OKAY I WAS TALKING A BIT TOO MUCH
HAHA.
SO STRESSED AND DEPRESSED UNTIL I STARTED TALKING CRAP.
I NEED A STRESS BALL.
MAYBE MY HAIR WOULD TURN WHITE EARLIER.

There is extra literature and English class tomorrow.
There’s choir too.
So which shall I go to?
Literature or Choir?
Keeping in mind that my choir teacher-in-charge is my literature teacher.
English on the other hand….
Hmmmmmmm
I shall consider, but these are extra lessons to help me I my studies, so maybe I should go after all.
Haha.

I SHALL HEREBY PROCLAIM THAT THIS WEEK SHALL BE CALLED
“SELF-DEPRECIATING WEEK”

It was sure one depressing week.
And all of these were on results; I have yet to mention my social life.
But I shan’t.
It’s more depressing than my results.

My new motto:
“ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS”
Currently, however, there isn’t anything to look bright on or is worth trying to be happy about.

AND ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY!’ TO ALL THOSE THAT I FORGOTTEN TO WISH THIS YEAR.

When would infatuation be considered love?
Is it fated?
I missed thinking about you.
Goodbye.

every day is a new day ♥

;

12:36 PM

I feel like a failure
Come on, I mean like I failed E maths and Literature.
Its like so shit.

This year, I feel stupid.
I also don’t know why
I mean, I study but I just seem to do badly.
I try to make an effort, but its just not good enough.
Almost everything turned out badly this year.

It’s shocking to think back to my secondary two life.
I did quite well in all my tests and exams
Comparing it to now…
Sigh.
It’s like a bad nightmare gone wrong.
I never knew that my results could drop until so low.

Its not that I haven’t been trying hard
I have.
I really don’t know why.
And nothing is affecting my studies.
Really.

THEN WHY COULDN’T I GET BETTER MARKS?
WHY? WHY? WHY?

Maybe now is something like when I was in secondary one
I did quite badly too in the exams then
As I was still not used to the different subjects and how to study them
Yeah, maybe.
Excuses, excuses and more excuses.
I just like making them up to make myself feel better.

I AM A WEAK AND UNFIT FAT LITTLE GIRL

I can’t even do a single inclined pull-up.
And now its like 3 pull-ups in order to pass.
Sigh.
I THINK I’M GOING TO FAIL MY PFT.
I still don’t know the use of PFT
And why it’s like so important
I mean even if we fail, nothing is going to happen right?
I CAN DO ALL THE OTHER STATIONS
ALL EXCEPT THE INCLINED PULL-UPS
I mean, all the others I can at least get a B each
But because of one horrible station that I can’t seem to pass in, I fail the whole PFT
How ‘fair’ is that?
I HATE MY ARM MUSCLES
THEY ARE SO WEAK
OR MAYBE ITS MY BODY’S FAULT BECAUSE ITS SO HEAVY.
I detest the Internet wireless connection
It’s so faulty
I mean sometimes because its wireless, the connection to the router can be so low until the connections gets cut off.
Yeah, just nice.
I AM PISSED OFF WITH IT.
IT’S BECAUSE OF THE STUPID LOUSY CONNECTION THAT CAUSED ME TO “MISUSE MY PRIVILAGES” AND THUS NO MORE FREE TIME FOR ME TO SURF ANYMORE.
WOW.
HOW WONDERFUL.
I had to choose that time to publish the earlier post on my blog, and the connection got cut off. So it did not get posted and the long post was automatically deleted.
How wonderful
AND I HAD TO RE-TYPE EVERYTHING AGAIN
TAKING UP MY MUCH NEEDED LIMITED ACCESS TIME ON THE INTERNET
AND ACCIDENTELY CUT INTO SOME EXTRA TIME.
Causing my parent’s head to blow up and explode
Saying that I misused my privileges they give us on using the net.
That I have no discipline to stop using.
I mean, hello?
I seldom go into the net; I mean I only go in like once or twice a week.
And I need to update my blog or it will be stale and no one wants to come and read it.

And to answer your question on why Asher and I would use so long when you gave us the permission to use the net?
Well, its because we seldom go online. And when we finally do, we want to make sure that we use ALL the time and access you give us, every single little bit of it, or we won’t get a chance to use it again until the next time we ask for permission and you agree to let us use.
Its called MAKING THE MOST OF SOMETHING EVEN THOUGH HOW LITTLE OR SMALL IT IS.

BUT TO SOME OTHER PEOPLE, IT’S MORE LIKE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THEM ALLOWING YOU TO USE THE INTERNET. ‘GIVE YOU A CENTIMETRE AND YOU TAKE A METRE’

Two different points of view.
Well, there goes my precious time on using the Internet.
After all, they are my seniors, I have to obey them.
I know my place in the family/ society.
Therefore, they still have the final say.
But this is my side of the argument.
Yeah.
And I know that if you read this post, you are going to scold me.
But well,
I AM WILLING TO TAKE THE RISK.

THE BEST OF DOOWOP!! <<33

- Teenager in love

Each time we have a quarrel
It almost breaks my heart
‘cause I am so afraid
That we might have to part

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love?

One day I feel so happy
Next day I feel so sad
I guess I’ll learn to take
The good with the bad

Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love?

- Lollipop

Lollipop, lollipop
Oh lolli, lolli, lolli
Lollipop, lollipop
Oh lolli, lolli, lolli
Lollipop
*POP*

Call my baby lollipop, Tell you why
His kiss is sweeter than an apple pie
And when he does that shaky rockin’ dance
Man, I haven’t got a chance

- Earth Angel

Earth Angel, earth angel
Will you be mine?
My darling dear
I love you all the time
I’m just a foola fool in love with you

- SHBOOM

Oh life could be a dream
If I could take you up in paradise up above
If you would tell me I’m the only one that you love
Life could be a dream sweetheart
Hello, hello again
ShBoom, and hop in’ we’ll meet again

Oh life could be a dream
If only all my precious plans would come true
If you would let me spend my whole life lovin’ you
Life could be a dream sweetheart

I just love doowop!
Haha.

If my life was always dark and gloomy
You are my little spot of sunshine J
The memories we shared would always be cherished
Even though you are not there anymore.
I see you everywhere, so close to me, but yet so far away.
All the fun times we had was lost, each party doesn’t know who changed first.
It hurts to know that we are slowing fading away from one another.
I see you from faraway, how happy you are.
While I, on the other hand, feel so alone and dejected.
I want to go back to our past and relive those wonderful memories I had with you
Are you willing to go back with me?
Or is it just too late to turn back the clock
And be as close as we once were?
I want to share my problems with you,
Open up all my feelings to you
But are you willing to share yours with me?

Friendship comes packaged with hurt and sorrow
It appears only when you open it.
I guess my little package can never be rewrapped again,
For hurt and sorrow envelops and kills me.
Slowly.
The new emo me.
You better like it.

every day is a new day ♥

Monday, March 05, 2007 ;

10:23 PM

IT WAS SURE ONE WET TIRING LONG WEEK
SECONDARY THREE ADVENTURE CAMP!

It was fun fun and more fun!
Whee!
Beside the horrible weather, it was just sheer mud dirt and sweat.
Haha.
I DEMAND A RE-CAMP!

Day one
I had to carry my extremely heavy haversack to school
Almost dislocated my shoulder I think.
Haha.

THREEONE WENT DRAGON-BOATING!
I WANT TO GO AND DRAGONBOAT AGAIN!
Dragon-boating gives you muscles man.
My arms hurt from all the rowing of the paddle.
The instructor taught our boat to splash water at the other team
And we were SO WET
I WAS COMPLETELY DRENCHED, HEAD TO TOE.
Then we had a dragon-boat race
OUR BOAT WON!
YIPPPPEEEE.
GO TOLIET! GO TOLIET! GO TOLIET!
(Inside joke)

Next we learnt the different campfire songs
like the cute frog song with actions
and THE FRIENDSHIP DANCE!

As we walked to the left
As we walked to the right
As we walked as we walked as wee walked all night
With a heel and a toe with a half-turn around
With a heel and a toe and a new friend found

Wahoo!

The amazing race was next.
We formed groups of nine
And went all around pasir ris park to search for clues in the form of symbols
Our group went to the big playground instead
Haha.

BISCUITS!
I THINK I KIND OF GORGED ON BISCUITS
ATE MORE THAN LIKE ONE BIG PLASTIC BAG OF BISCUITS
WHEN A PERSON IS HUNGRY
NOTHING IS TOO MUCH
HAHA.

Last but certainly not least was
THE NIGHT CONFIDENCE WALK!
It rocks!!!!!!!!
I screamed not because I’m scared but because I was shocked
I mean when you are walking in this dark place
And then suddenly a man just jumps out from under the bridge to like scare you
You would like also feel-shocked right?

Slept in my tent with four other tent mates
Alice, Jessica, Sabrina and huong
Haha.
The place was so small
There was not enough place for me to even sleep straight
Thus ending up with stiff body parts in the morning.

I WILL NEVER EVER BATH WITH A HOSE EVER AGAIN
Seriously.
It’s difficult
I had to like squat down as the hose was like too short
And by turning the hose up
I accidentally shot water up my nose and choked
And we only have like three minutes each to bathe or shower
Haha.

Day two
Went to do the rope challenges
The high elements
Middle elements
Low elements
And team rope challenge

Didn’t make it for the team rope challenge
Got stuck when climbing the swinging tires
And was exhausted
So sorry for my partner, as she also had to go down as it was a team effort course thing
Got like bruises and rope abrasions
AND SUNBURNT REALLY BADLY
I WAS LIKE A TOMATO
OR A LOBSTER
THAT RED
DAMM DIGUSTING

And suddenly there was this really heavy rain
And our tents….
WERE FLOODED
I MEAN I COULD LIKE SWIM IN IT
IT WAS BAD.
Haha.
And sleeping bag and bags were soaking wet
In the end we had to go back to school
To sleep in the hall.
Haha.

This time I just ran to the toilet
To ‘chope’ a space in the nicer showing cubicles
Haha.

Sleep then was much better
And I was happy J

Day three
Had to wake up at seven
Earlier than the others cause I had to get ready to go for the choir combined syf showcase at river valley high school
I OVERSLEPT
Had to rush like mad and rush for the toilet again
To brush my teeth and change
And rush all the way down to the performing arts room
Luckily they changed it to school
So I don’t have to wake up as early as 530
Haha.

Skipped breakfast and lunch

Came back expecting at least some food but instead all the sec 3 choir girls had to share like two packets of measly nasi lemak
Its like so little
And our stomachs were still growling
They ‘forgot’ to keep some for us.

Then it was time to break camp
They were hugs and photos taken with all the instructors
Desmond aka lily and Jocelyn aka rose
You both rock!
Haha.
Love ya!

And I had to still go for choir for a while
All my choirmates said that I looked like a lobster!
Humph.
Yeah. THAT RED.

THAT CONCLUDES MY THREE DAY CAMP WITHOUT MUCH DETAILS
HAHA.

DANG IT, I MISSED MISSING YOU
SWEET ESCAPE.

every day is a new day ♥