Sunday, March 11, 2007 ;
12:36 PM
I feel like a failure
Come on, I mean like I failed E maths and Literature.
Its like so shit.
This year, I feel stupid.
I also don’t know why
I mean, I study but I just seem to do badly.
I try to make an effort, but its just not good enough.
Almost everything turned out badly this year.
It’s shocking to think back to my secondary two life.
I did quite well in all my tests and exams
Comparing it to now…
Sigh.
It’s like a bad nightmare gone wrong.
I never knew that my results could drop until so low.
Its not that I haven’t been trying hard
I have.
I really don’t know why.
And nothing is affecting my studies.
Really.
THEN WHY COULDN’T I GET BETTER MARKS?
WHY? WHY? WHY?
Maybe now is something like when I was in secondary one
I did quite badly too in the exams then
As I was still not used to the different subjects and how to study them
Yeah, maybe.
Excuses, excuses and more excuses.
I just like making them up to make myself feel better.
I AM A WEAK AND UNFIT FAT LITTLE GIRL
I can’t even do a single inclined pull-up.
And now its like 3 pull-ups in order to pass.
Sigh.
I THINK I’M GOING TO FAIL MY PFT.
I still don’t know the use of PFT
And why it’s like so important
I mean even if we fail, nothing is going to happen right?
I CAN DO ALL THE OTHER STATIONS
ALL EXCEPT THE INCLINED PULL-UPS
I mean, all the others I can at least get a B each
But because of one horrible station that I can’t seem to pass in, I fail the whole PFT
How ‘fair’ is that?
I HATE MY ARM MUSCLES
THEY ARE SO WEAK
OR MAYBE ITS MY BODY’S FAULT BECAUSE ITS SO HEAVY.
I detest the Internet wireless connection
It’s so faulty
I mean sometimes because its wireless, the connection to the router can be so low until the connections gets cut off.
Yeah, just nice.
I AM PISSED OFF WITH IT.
IT’S BECAUSE OF THE STUPID LOUSY CONNECTION THAT CAUSED ME TO “MISUSE MY PRIVILAGES” AND THUS NO MORE FREE TIME FOR ME TO SURF ANYMORE.
WOW.
HOW WONDERFUL.
I had to choose that time to publish the earlier post on my blog, and the connection got cut off. So it did not get posted and the long post was automatically deleted.
How wonderful
AND I HAD TO RE-TYPE EVERYTHING AGAIN
TAKING UP MY MUCH NEEDED LIMITED ACCESS TIME ON THE INTERNET
AND ACCIDENTELY CUT INTO SOME EXTRA TIME.
Causing my parent’s head to blow up and explode
Saying that I misused my privileges they give us on using the net.
That I have no discipline to stop using.
I mean, hello?
I seldom go into the net; I mean I only go in like once or twice a week.
And I need to update my blog or it will be stale and no one wants to come and read it.
And to answer your question on why Asher and I would use so long when you gave us the permission to use the net?
Well, its because we seldom go online. And when we finally do, we want to make sure that we use ALL the time and access you give us, every single little bit of it, or we won’t get a chance to use it again until the next time we ask for permission and you agree to let us use.
Its called MAKING THE MOST OF SOMETHING EVEN THOUGH HOW LITTLE OR SMALL IT IS.
BUT TO SOME OTHER PEOPLE, IT’S MORE LIKE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF THEM ALLOWING YOU TO USE THE INTERNET. ‘GIVE YOU A CENTIMETRE AND YOU TAKE A METRE’
Two different points of view.
Well, there goes my precious time on using the Internet.
After all, they are my seniors, I have to obey them.
I know my place in the family/ society.
Therefore, they still have the final say.
But this is my side of the argument.
Yeah.
And I know that if you read this post, you are going to scold me.
But well,
I AM WILLING TO TAKE THE RISK.
THE BEST OF DOOWOP!! <<33
- Teenager in love
Each time we have a quarrel
It almost breaks my heart
‘cause I am so afraid
That we might have to part
Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love?
One day I feel so happy
Next day I feel so sad
I guess I’ll learn to take
The good with the bad
Each night I ask the stars up above
Why must I be a teenager in love?
- Lollipop
Lollipop, lollipop
Oh lolli, lolli, lolli
Lollipop, lollipop
Oh lolli, lolli, lolli
Lollipop
*POP*
Call my baby lollipop, Tell you why
His kiss is sweeter than an apple pie
And when he does that shaky rockin’ dance
Man, I haven’t got a chance
- Earth Angel
Earth Angel, earth angel
Will you be mine?
My darling dear
I love you all the time
I’m just a foola fool in love with you
- SHBOOM
Oh life could be a dream
If I could take you up in paradise up above
If you would tell me I’m the only one that you love
Life could be a dream sweetheart
Hello, hello again
ShBoom, and hop in’ we’ll meet again
Oh life could be a dream
If only all my precious plans would come true
If you would let me spend my whole life lovin’ you
Life could be a dream sweetheart
I just love doowop!
Haha.
If my life was always dark and gloomy
You are my little spot of sunshine J
The memories we shared would always be cherished
Even though you are not there anymore.
I see you everywhere, so close to me, but yet so far away.
All the fun times we had was lost, each party doesn’t know who changed first.
It hurts to know that we are slowing fading away from one another.
I see you from faraway, how happy you are.
While I, on the other hand, feel so alone and dejected.
I want to go back to our past and relive those wonderful memories I had with you
Are you willing to go back with me?
Or is it just too late to turn back the clock
And be as close as we once were?
I want to share my problems with you,
Open up all my feelings to you
But are you willing to share yours with me?
Friendship comes packaged with hurt and sorrow
It appears only when you open it.
I guess my little package can never be rewrapped again,
For hurt and sorrow envelops and kills me.
Slowly.
The new emo me.
You better like it.
every day is a new day ♥
