Sunday, March 11, 2007 ;
12:37 PM
THIS CONFIRMS THAT I AM A COMPLETE FAILURE
I CAN’T EVEN QUALIFY FOR A PROPER JC WITH MY CA1’S L1R5 SCORE.
I feel like a loser.
Being in a class of geniuses aren’t exactly helping me to relieve my self-bashing antics.
And all those people who said that they go ‘really low’ for their L1R5
Just zip it alright?
There are a few of those people out there who needs some space to sniffle and sob, without those declaring that they did so shit, when they actually got BELOW FIFTEEN POINTS.
I learnt how to be sensitive to other people’s feelings after a very bad incident, and I really don’t want any of you to experience any bad experiences and then change like me. By the time you realized that you actually was insensitive to other people’s feelings, the damage was done; and the person would feel even more depressed.
And there is certainly no need to feel sorry for yourselves,
Just think that you are scoring better than such a loser like me is good enough.
I never knew that one’s grades could actually drop from as A1 in secondary two to like an E8 in secondary three. That drastic, to the point of shocking.
ARGHHHHHHHHH
I feel like tearing my hairs out.
I FEEL DAMN STUPID.
ARGHHHHHHHHH
All this talking makes me look like I am so results-oriented.
But just to tell you this.
MY LIFE WAS ALWAYS LIKE THIS.
I mean social life and moral values are quite important too,
But results play a huge part in your lives too.
I mean without good results, where would we stand in society in this new modern age? Where will we find a well-paid job? Without a job, will you have food to put on the table? You can’t always depend on your parents forever, they would have to retire one day or it would burn them out. Will you have money to support your family? Or even get married? Or to have kids? Many things rely solely on results. For example, if you managed to get a job a company, and at the end of the year you don’t make money for the company or give the boss any results, will you still be hired?
OKAY I WAS TALKING A BIT TOO MUCH
HAHA.
SO STRESSED AND DEPRESSED UNTIL I STARTED TALKING CRAP.
I NEED A STRESS BALL.
MAYBE MY HAIR WOULD TURN WHITE EARLIER.
There is extra literature and English class tomorrow.
There’s choir too.
So which shall I go to?
Literature or Choir?
Keeping in mind that my choir teacher-in-charge is my literature teacher.
English on the other hand….
Hmmmmmmm
I shall consider, but these are extra lessons to help me I my studies, so maybe I should go after all.
Haha.
I SHALL HEREBY PROCLAIM THAT THIS WEEK SHALL BE CALLED
“SELF-DEPRECIATING WEEK”
It was sure one depressing week.
And all of these were on results; I have yet to mention my social life.
But I shan’t.
It’s more depressing than my results.
My new motto:
“ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS”
Currently, however, there isn’t anything to look bright on or is worth trying to be happy about.
AND ‘HAPPY BIRTHDAY!’ TO ALL THOSE THAT I FORGOTTEN TO WISH THIS YEAR.
When would infatuation be considered love?
Is it fated?
I missed thinking about you.
Goodbye.
every day is a new day ♥
